Allergic to Life - Everything Seems Artificial

These past two days have marked a new low for me in a personal level.

I made the mistake of not buying a car with air conditioning and the dry heat and awful traffic have made my life a living hell. It's my fault for not buying a car with ac.

The buddhist way is to reflect upon the poor situation as it occurs. Yet I cannot do this. Instead the anger builds up and I end up cursing or making turns where I shouldn't to avoid traffic. I only reflect at my actions long after, when I'm at home lying down and thinking about it. The way I act out when I'm upset is not good, and it saddens me that I can't be more balanced in the face of hardship.

I hate getting upset. I hate getting angry. It saddens me, like a huge tragedy.

But how am I suppose to feel or think?

The buddhist say, "As we deepen our spiritual awareness, our suffering, which is mere illusion caused by false views, will diminish and vanish altogether."

I'm not sure if I'm suppose to think that being "angry or upset" is the false view here. There is no illusion about the fact that heat causes people to get angry. It's been documented in case studies done in Phoenix Arizona.

If anything I need to take responsibility for buying such a car. Then I need to look at ways to avoid being stuck in traffic in the heat. Perhaps I can stick to the bus, which has ac, during peak traffic hours.

In one of those moments of reflection though, I came up with the idea that LIFE is all about CONDITIONING, RECONDITIONING, and DECONDITIONING. And it got me thinking how artificial that seems to make life. But I suppose the purpose is to find good conditioning.

Contemplation of the Word: NEOPHYTE

I came across the word Neophyte today while reading about Personal Alchemy from CC Zain's The Brotherhood of Light and Religion of the Stars Lessons on Light.org.

They are a religion of Hermeticism stemming from the esoteric writings of the Greek God Hermes Trismegistus.

But also I wanted to say that I first decided to look at a video today by Infinite Waters' Ralph Smart. I was listening to him speak about how to open up the 3rd Eye. He mentions facts and biological terms like the pineal gland releasing melatonin. But he also mentions that it's all about thinking on the right side of the brain, as an artist. But the more your 3rd eye opens the more you become an alchemist, and then a magician who can utilize both brain hemispheres seamlessly. Ralph mentions the importance of this gland and the importance of opening up the 3rd Eye: He mentions that raw foods and super foods (spirulina for example) activate the pineal gland because of their enzymes. He says it's the seat of intuition. 

IN my spiritual journey I will go on a more alkaline diet, eat little to no meat, abstain from all things with fluoride, take Iodine Supplements, and embrace the darkness to become whole.

Now again about the word Neophyte, it includes Neo in the word, which can mean new or newbie. Like Neo from the Matrix he was new to the philosophies and ideas of what encompassed the movie.
I too am a neo, a neophyte to be exact who is learning how to be more spiritual and more equipped to live a fulfilling life. 
To learn about the Philosophy of The Matrix visit this blog:
http://www.spiritualgenome.com

The following is a paintings titled The Neophyte by the French, Gustave Dore.

The Reason Why Focus and Attention Is Important

So this goes back to my telepathic communion with Jackie and Monica.. they told me to make a collage of textbook articles that speak of Focus and Attention..

Now I have found the WHY?

The answer is here:

Watch this video specifically made for Intuitive Empaths like myself who become drained and used and abused by Energy Vampires.. aka Negative Creeps

How to Stop Absorbing Other People's Energy by Ralph Smart

Why the Supermoon and Comets Affect my Personality

The scientific community scoffs at astrology, all of it, not even considering the weird and staggering statistics of people who are hospitalized during supermoons, comets, or other astronomical events.

Wikipedia states the following, ".. there is no proposed mechanism of action by which the positions and motions of stars and planets could affect people and events on Earth that does not contradict well understood basic aspects of biology and physics."

I have a theory to explain why the supermoon and comets affect my personality, which they do, and they have for years now. Most likely since my diagnosis in 2007. I am not a magician I don't practice magic, no matter how others may assume and judge. I am an indigo child/adult and here is my theory:

To explain why or how the moon affects me and comets, one has to look at the existence of fractals. The comets affect our orbit even at the conscious and biological level all thanks to consciousness.
It's like this fractal is the consciousness that weaves my personality and biology and it's perhaps...

I'll stop there.

First Telepathic Communion with Jackie and Monica

Yesterday, a few hours after my fine art printmaking class, I communicated telepathically to two art classmates.

I see it possible as if her spirit could be in two places at the same time, in my head and in her body living and doing things as normal. It's almost similar to the theory of unlimited outcomes as featured in the documentary, WHAT THE BLEEP DO WE KNOW? ("the court of unending possibilities").

Anyway, they communicated this with me:

•  Make a collage of color copies, the copies will be of: Focus & Attention articles & textbook pages. Then memorize the Contents of the Collage.
• Get things right the FIRST TIME.
• Christ Consciousness > lots who don't realize it unless they get spiritual.

and finally, the "8 PHASES OF HUMANITY":

1. hunting gathering
2. farming
3. industrial
4. experience
5. transcendence
6. WAR
7. recuperation (3rd definition on dictionary.com)

The Comets plus the Supermoon

I'm all out of my normal self.. I appear to be at varied levels of consciousness.

My mood however is not affected (much). However I failed to take my Saphris medication last night and to some may appear to be in a hypomanic phase. I've taken ativan to calm my nerves. My brain and heart are still fired up. I sense to easily, too quickly, too much, too soon, etc.

I've learned that the cities in Orange County are created in a fortified like design and architecture, creating a supposed deterministic approach. My sense of psychic or intuitive abilities are at an obviously heightened level for reasons you can imagine. I'm an indigo child.

I want the coincidences to stop. It's too many and I'm starting to not like it at all. I drank some tea but it's not enough, again I'm trying ativan. So far I've taken one pill.

Soon I'll be leaving for my fine art printmaking class, I'm done with my project and will not be printing but I have to show up for a Relief Printmaking test.

My teacher said, "I'm not out of the wilderness yet." I know what he means now.

Please note I am not depressed, just upset. A little angry. I feel like Jesus and I'm being prosecuted, they'll use me up, abuse me, and throw me to the dungeon after they've made damaged lemons out of me.

Again, negative stuff, but right now, I'm not in a state of mind I would like to be. It's too heightened. Not Zen enough for me.

I'm ill equipped for this. I need Archangel Metatron to help me unravel the mysterious demon consciousness without driving me out of my mind.

A Angel Fine Art Story - The Empath

Let me start out with this:

I perceive Angels as being in a constant state of higher consciousness, and they incarnate as humans to experience not only the rush of reaching it from time to time but to help the rest of us reach it. The goal of it all, is up to you.

Inspired by the new trailer to The Giver Movie

https://www.youtube.com/watch?v=hDIGoQlKfA0

I am going to scrap my old vampire short film script, Love Blast and transform it into a story not of a vampire but of an incarnated angel and call this fine art story The Empath.

This particular story will be for one of my screenwriting film classes which I'll enroll in next year in mid January. So I have some time till then, yet I need to start on it asap. I have a tendency to write slow. Writing is not my forte.

But I can tell you, it will include a Hero's Journey filled with self-actualization/self-realization and a note worthy twist (I think). I hope this story "incarnates the literature of the day."